Indecision

I haven't decided anything...at all.

There are so many things I want to accomplish. So many things I want to get out of life. I know people might think I am being ridiculously adventurous or just plain ridiculous by trying to accomplish all of them. The thing is, I don't think it's ridiculous at all. These are the things I want to be able to do in my life. Is it impossible to be good at a lot of things? To be accomplished in a lot of things?

Haven't I proven that I can do what is asked of me? That I can give that which was demanded of me? That which they claimed was my duty to perform?

I have to try these things for myself. I have to achieve what I want to achieve, otherwise I would live the rest of my life feeling unfulfilled and cheated...not by others, but by myself. I don't want that. That's the worst thing that could ever happen.

This is just something I have to do. I have to see it for myself, to learn it for myself.